“The trick is to enjoy life…

I hate today. I’m so glad I never have to relive it. And I’m so glad I got it.

Never again do I want to fearfully confess to Matt that our baby resembles the picture of a near-death baby I saw on Instagram last summer.

Never again do I want to go to the pediatrician for the third consecutive day because Annie cannot keep anything down or in.

Never again do I want my sweet friend, fellow HLHS mom pediatrician to look me in the eye and urge, “Go, now. Don’t stop by home for clothes. Don’t stop on the side of the road for bad weather. Go to the ER now! If you can’t make it on your own, call an ambulance.”

Never again do I want to hand my baby back over for the night to an ICU room that is so intensive a parent is not allowed a place to sleep.

But I’m so glad I got today.

I’m so glad that today, I’m the momma Annie squirmed to reach from underneath the echo probe.

I’m so glad that today, Annie livened up enough to repeatedly bat her nurse’s back in protest to the every-2-hour blood draw.

I’m so glad that today, three medical personnel who cared for Annie referred to her as “their Annie.” I’m so glad that today Audrey had people who stepped in and loved her well.

I’m so glad that today Annie got a little better.

I’m so glad that today God provided enough mercies for today. I’m so glad that today ends with hope that He will again tomorrow too.

22 22 The steadfast love of theLord never ceases; his mercies never come to an end; they are new every morning;
    great is your faithfulness. -Lamentations 3:22-23

…don’t waste away your days waiting for better ones ahead.”

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8 thoughts on ““The trick is to enjoy life…

  1. pam dunavant says:

    Praying for precious Annie and the rest of your family, Tracy. Thank you for sharing these “never agains” followed by the “I’m so glads”.

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  2. John Majors says:

    Thanks for sharing so openly. Wow. What a day. Even in a hospital bed, your daughter is beautiful. We have prayed and will continue to pray!

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  3. The LoRussos says:

    The LoRussos pray daily for sweet Annie, as well as whenever else the Lord brings her to mind. This morning when I prayed over her day, Jer. 29:11 came to mind. As often as we all hear that verse, today, I believe the Lord put it on my heart for Annie! Praying for you, Matt, and Audrey as well.

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